No sleep still

I’m still here waiting for my iphone to restore back my photos. My head is pain and I just wish this feeling goes away. I just found out I was rejected. It really hurts because I tried so hard to put my work together. I guess it wasn’t meant to be. This goes for people, I always go all out for them. Even though I know they will never for me. I’m just not worth it I guess. Maybe this is why i appreciate the little things people do for me so much. I just got a christmas card in the mail from my friend and I honestly felt special for once. I never get anything from anyone, but this meant a lot. It’s christmas season and I know that i’m not worthy for anything cool. what’s wrong with me, right? I just wish I get something meaningful but that will never happen.

I’ve been up way too long, it’s almost morning and yesterday I didn’t get much sleep either. I’m trying to do things to get my mind off things, but it’s not working. Hopefully in a few hours I’ll be fine. Today I watched a movie, gullivers travels and I worked. I fell on my ass which was funny. But it sure is bruised. I’m off to sleep. I guess